In my cold, uninviting basement, as my legs
took me nowhere, spinning like a hamster on a wheel, my mind went to deep places
only found by listening to that still small voice. Perhaps it’s the exercise
induced euphoria that keeps me lacing up my running shoes day after day like a
junkie looking for the next fix. Perhaps it’s the broken sleep schedule I’ve
kept this week due to Andy working into the wee hours of the morning. Perhaps it’s the semi-state of panic that
grips people before a big storm as though the end is truly near. Perhaps it’s the conversation with friends
about death. Perhaps it’s the uptick in politically motivated Facebook posts
lately.
Perhaps it’s my own consciousness of how
closely each of us is linked to one another. Within a six-week time frame our small,
relatively safe community endured two police action shootings. Besides being
the wife of an officer, I realized I was connected to every one of the people
involved in some way. I went to school
with one of the officers who had to make a split second decision, with one
victim and with one perpetrator. The cousin of the other perpetrator is a close
friend and school mate as well. The wife
of the other officer who had to make a split second decision was a nurse at the
hospital when my boys were born. She was one of the first people to hold my
babies in her arms. Her father used to babysit Andy when he was a boy. Connected indeed.
As all these thoughts were swirling
in my head to the steady beat of my feet and the music in my ears, a striking
visual came to my mind. As Back in Black
blared in the background, I suddenly saw Jesus walking down the hall of a
school, down a dark alley, into a rough roadhouse bar with this song, written
by Aussie party boys, as his anthem. He was not the Jesus pictured knocking on
a door or holding children in his lap.
He was dressed in jeans and a black leather jacket with his long hair
flowing behind him, a look of confidence and compassion on his bearded face. He
was in all these places filled with brokenness.
As this image left my mind I was
reminded that we are all broken and in need of a savior. I was reminded that no
matter what choices we’ve made, we are all offered forgiveness. All we need to do is ask. I was also reminded
that our job in this world is to help one another. Period. Our willingness to
go out into the dark to bring in the light must not be deterred by the things
that divide us. We are connected by our
Creator. We are connected by our community. We are connected by compassion. How
will you connect today?
So true, Jennifer. We are all broken and in need of a Savior. One person's brokenness may look "uglier" than another one's, but it is all about falling short and missing the mark ... and recognizing and then asking for that forgiveness.
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